Looks like it’s dead before it got started.  Just waiting for official confirmation.

God, I hate it here.

// It Begins Again//

I’m falling into the same trap again, aren’t I?

I have so much hope that this will go somewhere, but not really much reason to believe.  I need to pull back on the expectations a bit.

Still, it is a game changer either way. 

And it was nice to smile again.  Haven’t been able to that in a real long time.  Time will tell.  I’m trying to explain to myself that this has to go slow, but the potential is there and that has me really excited.

And that is mostly a good thing, right?

She was in my dream last night. It’s like my own sub-conscience has turned against me now.

*sigh*

Whatever.  I hate this place, and I can’t wait to leave.